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Death comes to June
June 08, 2009 - 5:48 pm

So... Grandma died last night. The funeral and such is to be on Wed. I'm left with this... confusion -- am I supposed to go?

I would feel so stupidly awkward there. Intruding on the grief of her seven children... and all the much closer kin than I.

Is it wrong to have no desire to go?
Is it wrong not to need or want the closure of a funeral?

That is, after all, the point of a funeral... a gathering of close people all sharing the same grief. A chance to say goodbye one last time. A chance to tell stories and remember the good times...

Funerals are not for the dead, they are for the living.

And... to take an absurdly awkward segway into what's been on my mind the last few days....

Just how interesting a fellow has David Carradine become?

If someone had suggested I read his bio a week ago, I'd have shrugged and said why? Sure, I've enjoyed the occasional Kung Fu rerun that I've caught. I greatly enjoyed him in Criminal Minds... but still, he struck me as much the sort of person he played in shows -- quiet and unassuming.

How very wrong that seems to be! I'm suddenly much more curious about him. Not just because of the lurid details, but... well... it's the idea of split lives.

I feel an odd sort of link to him now.

Oh, how I wonder... now and then... just how some folks would react if they saw the whole life I lead. If they could peek into my head and see what I think.

(this way) / (that way)

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