"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

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July 22, 2006 - 10:49 am

i hate it when i can "see" myself doing something i know i shouldn't do. it's like the little censor in my head is saying, "hey, hold on here..." and i hear the voice.. and i think to myself, "i am making the right move?".. but i don't actaully stop. there's just this little quick inner monologue and then i can pitcher this "fatherly" disapproving headshake as i do whatever it is...

more often than not, that little censor voice is right i should have paused. why don't i listen to that voice?

in other, other news.. the presentations went well. my group won "top" honors -- which means we got leather business card holders. i can't imagine ever using the thing.. it's f'ing huge for a card holder. more than one person said to me that i'm "good" at speaking.. which is a shock to me. i've never considered myself "good" at it. i'm comfortable in a smallish group setting, which a lot of folks in training aren't really comfortable in yet..

i dunno. i shouldn't look to deflect the compliments.. and i didn't then, telling everyone thanks.

in the next few days we are each to get detailed reviews and i'm looking forward to that. i get tired only hearing the "rough" overview of the all the groups..

anyway.. it's still f'ing hot and humid. i can't think of much to do today.. i think i might get a suit.

who'd ever thought i'd say that??