"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

there's so much left unsaid
January 17, 2006 - 8:15 pm

i didn't like it, but that doesn't matter.

as i said then, things have been how you wanted/needed them to be.. pretty much since we met. years.

there's not been one inch of movement towards what i want/need. i'm living closer than ever.. but no contact, no phone calls.. just typing on a screen.

i'm sorry, but.. it's been years. call me impatient. call me.. uncaring. call me.. whatever.

call me a fool for having kept out hope for so long.

did i handle it well? probably not. it wasn't planned. it just kind popped in my head.

impulse control disorder, that's me.

i know some of the thing i said hurt/pissed you off.. that wasn't my intent.. but when you ask "do/did i get you?" a few days after telling me lots of what you've told is lies... how am i to answer?

i know i like you, but i don't think we ever had a real chance to get to know each other.

if you think you knew me.. and you said (as much as said) you used to "get" me... what's it mean to "get" someone, but not want to be in the same room as them?

i dunno. perhaps my logic skills are faulty. i know i've asked you explain things to me before.. but that never goes over well.

perhaps i shouldn't have tried to explain anything to you. perhaps i just should have said, "bye" and nothing else.