"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

my back fucking hurts
August 07, 2004 - 11:01 am

thankfully, in my life i can't think of a pain worse than a fucked up back. i'm sure such a thing exists.. however, having spasms of pain with nearly every movement.. having to plan out how to get out of a chair, into bed.. out of bed.. into a the shower stall.. onto the toilet.. this is more than enough to deal with.

it's been ages since i've had the nagging back pain - since may, so not really ages. i forgot how much of a true hinderence this shit can be.

i'm not sure exactly what i did to piss my back off - no doubt it was the yardwork coupled with some bending/picking things up.. and my being over weight.

stairs sucked.

putting megan in her crib sucked. i was fearful, that i was going to be asked to pick her up when, several hours later, she awoke and started to cry. at that point, was i was in bed and trying to sort out what position my back would tolerate.. i don't think i'd have been able to get out of bed and pick her up.

thankfully, i wasn't asked and megan went back to sleep on her own.

today.. it was very sore this morning. i was loathing the idea of my 3 hour class... but oddly, i'm feeling better after the class.

anyway. the mental hell i construct for myself, now has it's physical counterpart - all is right with the world.

oh. last night. i caught a short bit of o'riely talking to ben affleck.. and wholey bejesus.. it was a rationaly discussion! i was impressed - mostly because o'reily seemed to be in some sort of awe of ben. ben showed himself to be a pretty smart guy. o'reily was well behaved - i can't think of a single rude interruption.

i spent the rest of the night, in back pain, on the look out for riders on pale horses - for surely the o'reily being civil is a sign of the end times.