"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

the end is near?
September 16, 2002 - 10:10 pm

both make me a lazy bastard. neither offers much of substantive value.

i can save eighty bucks a month right there. i can access the net at work and still get some basic channels on the tv. i can rent movies.

mostly i'd start to read more. reading is better than tv.

the extra cash would be nice. that would enable me to have some funds, however limited, to do things...to eat dinner out now and then with others.

all of this would mean greatly reduced postings here. i don't much fancy updating from work. the whole thing about work being able to see any website i access. actaully, it'd probably mean no more posting here.

there'd be no more aol im.

i'd still use hotmail.

the lack of posting here and aol im would take some adjustments, but not much. i havn't had im on much recently anyway.

i talked to the chevy people today about somehow lowering my payments. i liked the guy. he's basically right in saying that a lease is, in this aspect, a lot like a buy. if i needed to get out of buy, i'd have to find someone to take my car. if i can find someone who will take over my lease, i'm i business...otherwise, it's a contract, just like if i had bought it.

if i'm still here in two years, i'll get my next car from this guy. he ran numbers, talked to lots of people. he didn't blow me off.

so that's one thing i'm thinking of.

i'm going to start to mediate when i go to bed. well not start, i usually do in my own way. i think of stories or run through situations. what i mean now is some dedicated thinkin' time on what i want to do.

going to get my mba or communications degree is pointless. neither degree lends itself to a set career. it's not like becoming a dentist or a doctor..where once you have the degree, you know what you'll be doing. just getting my mba would open up doors, but wouldn't fix the problem. i don't know what i want to do. in fact it would make my problems worse. it would be another financial burden. i need less of those.

right now, i think i'm going to go drink some chocolate milk.