"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

the heart of the matter
September 09, 2002 - 8:00 am

have you ever felt the need to learn more about the situation?

have you ever gone about that in what could perhaps be a poor way? not on purpose, but just how things sort of happened?

have you ever realized that there are two sides to the situation, the personal/emotional side and the objective/factual side?

have you ever felt that as a matter of prinicple the factual side should win?

have you ever wished that since you learned of the emotional side, that you never ever learned the first bit of information?

the upshot of all this is that about forty-five people are going to be extremely unhappy with me. one person far more than the rest.

perhaps they are right, this isn't my concern anymore. it's none of my business.

that doesn't matter though, it's gone too far for that. phone calls are being made, snipits of information are being leaked out and opinions are being formed and hardended.

in principle, i'm correct. this issues speaks to the very basic nature or an organization. it's not quite that simple though. i thought it would be simple. nothing with people ever is, is it?

i suppose without priniples, what do we have? if we pick and choose at random when to waive rules/regulations/criteria, what good is having them? what do you do when someone you don't like comes along and fits the "waived" criteria?

it's a muddy mess. i am the cause of it. well, not really. i brought the issue to the surface, it existed before i even knew about it. i'll be viewed as the villian, but the really...i'm just attempting to correct a situation that shouldn't ever have existed.

anyway, that's what i did this weekend. i made a ton of people unhappy. i'm going to make one person in particular hate me. i'm comfortable with that, i don't like it, but i understand it. perhaps comfortable isn't the right word. i understand it. the object of his displeasure shouldn't be me though.

unless the proper thing to do would been to have ingnored what i learned, ignore my own sense of right and wrong.

so when i get down to the heart of the matter. i wish i had gone about things slightly differently, but i'm glad i went about them at all.