"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

career prospects
March 11, 2002 - 2:10 pm

the interview kinda sucked. i like the concept of the job...i can't start where they want me to start paywise PLUS they want me to come back for a THIRD fucking day to sit with a current person for awhile...i can't deal with taking another day off for this job. three days to ask a person who is currently employeed..is to much. i could have done part three today, since i took the whole damn day off, but they wern't ready for that.

i told them i'd contact them to set up the third day, which i won't.

so i'm left with two plans of action. the first is off to small town pa. i emailed 'final' copies of my resume and cover letter to my friend and asked her to pass them on. gotta love networking. the second is close up shop in ct all together and head home to pittsburgh without a job in hand.

the problem here is, well kind of, that my parents are off on a vacation starting sunday. i'm not sure how long that trip is. if i put my two weeks notice in tomorrow...then i might get to pgh when they get back and things would work out. i think. i don't really know if going back to the rent's house is a viable option or not. we spoke on the phone and i did mention going to pgh without a job and they didn't offer the house...perhaps they thought it was understood. i'm going to call them tonight and tell them interview was not so good.

i have no desire to go back to my current job, even for two weeks. i just hate the concept of it.

i'm annoyed so much of what i'm working on is money driven. of these choices...taking money out of the picture, i'd go to small town job. hands down, no doubts. i think that's what i need to do. i know at small town job i have a true friend. i know other people who are close.

how i get to moved there..well that's another one of those money things *sigh* i can't move myself...i can carry almost everything i have, but everything. then there's the whole a moving van and a car to drive. i cant do both either. i think i'm going to get freight quotes for a movers...which seems absurd since i dont have that much stuff...but it would be easy. why not piss more money away?

did i mention this? no i don't think i did. i got an email from laura, small town friend, and she quoted the bible to me. not in a religious way, but in a here's a good quote to think about. i think she typed part of it wrong, but i get the jist of it. it's saying...what you ask for in prayer, believe you will recieve. in other words, decide what you want, and then go get it trusting that you can do it.

i think that's the key thing about any religion. it comes down to people need a source that tells them they can do something. people need a source that says you don't have the answers and you arn't really meant to. people need a source that says no matter what, i like you and care about you.

isn't that all religion really is but a warm fuzzy blanket...or you favorite stuffed animal?