"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

screwed...
March 5, 2002 - 5:42 pm

so i took that online test thing after the interview and i was told i'd be called yesterday or this morning to confrm a second meeting tomorrow at 4. i checked my cell phone, which is my only phone, at lunch. there was no message, so i called and left him a message. i asked him to call me and confirm them meeting tomorrow. i checked throughout the day, but no message. i come home and there's an email sent at 12:11, which is right after i called, saying to confirm the meeting tomorrow. my screwedness comes from this. i need to be up there by 4. i work about 40 minutes from there. i need to change and get my butt up there, giving the traffic i'm sure to hit, i need to leave word by like 2pm.

i'm not at work. i can't arrange this now. i wanted to do it while i was at work. i dunno what i was going to say. i think better under pressure. now though...i need to go in tomorrow with an excuse to leave at 2. it's not going to fly. i guess it's the same. tomorrow morning or today. it just looks better with more notice.

i gotta do it though. today fucking sucked, totally and completely. i felt the urge to cry, pointless, frustration born tears nearly all day.

did that story yesterday make any sense? i was tired when i wrote it. i wrote it fast and i'm not to sure if i spell checked it.

i must go and get a haircut. i must think of my reasoning to leave at 2 tomorrow.

OH OH OH! _hot damn_ how about this! i turned my old lease and how they check the lease is to have a company come in and look at it. what if i say i have to go to the dealer at 2 to sign the inventory/evaluation? no, that wont work. i'd just go and sign and come back. the dealer is too close.

i was close. i need to think a bit more. i'm going to be really pissed if this all happens and i dont get offered the job.

ugh. oh well, off to get my hair cut.