"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

insane?
2001-05-23 - 6:30 p.m.

I talked to my rents the other day. In the middle of things they said, 'Kristin is in med school now.' I was greatly confused. It turns out they ran into the 'rents of my first gf, who made a memorable entrance in these storied pages a while back. Sadly, she hasn't learned of this temendous honor. I'm sure she'd be suitably flattered and send me money as thanks or at least a lottery ticket. Speaking of, I forgot to buy a ticket again. I'm no good at winning the lotter. I can't even remember to buy a ticket.

Anyway, I got curious and looked up her school and fired off an email. I think its been four years (mebbe?!?) since we last spoke and eightish (jesus christ Im old!) since we dated. Is that right?? I'm 24 (almost 25 HINT HINT) and we started dating when I was 16 or 17. I'm no good with remebering dates and times. I can still recall conversations though. She replied today and I'm debating directing here to see what sort of a freak she once dated. At the very least her current bf would thank me, it would make him look the better.

My fingers are tired, I've been typing far to much lately.

Through here I've really gotten to notice how my mind swings. I've always know it did, but this place is like multiple people posting. I think that's pretty cool. They say to go with your strength. I just wish they wouldnt scream it all damn day long inside my head. I mean, now and then pick a new mantra.

I think I might take a coupla hundered bucks and head up to the casino this weekend. The place will be PACKED with all the tourist (funny how I call ppl tourists...me whose lived in four states in a single year not to long ago).

I've decided I really like the Barenaked Ladies (not just actaul ones, but the band). I like to jump around alot in what I listen to. But I can put in two or three cds of them and just listen to them without gettin the urge to change cds. They make good listenin music at any rate. They are mostly happy or mellow music too, which is probably good for me to listen too. When I drop in Stabbing Westward, Alice in Chains, Nirvana, NIN, Ministry, Monster Magnet, Gravity Kills...I tend to get moody on the unhappy side, which often fits exactly where I want to be and on the whole makes me happy. It's good when your mood matches how you want to feel.

Here's another sign I'm insane. I like rainy days. Days like these past ones kick ass. I like all the clouds, the rain doesnt matter to me. Clouds are good. Big huge puffy white, gray, black ones..any sort of cloud, I don't discriminate.

I don't really like the phrase 'I'm insane'. There's got to be a better why to say that. I'm deviant. I'm mad (thanks Mister Carol). Demented sounds kinda cool. Deranged...but then I never was ranged..so that's no good. Oh well, I don't need to label myself more than I already have. On the plus side, if I didn't have all these labels...I'd be naked.

I'm out of Altoids, the curiously strong mint.