"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

Lingering thoughts
September 03, 2007 - 9:16 am

The plan fades, the desire fades... and I'm left to wonder which it is I really like. Perhaps it's that newly imagined option simply isn't realistic. One of those things that sounds good on paper... but, in the stark and unforgiving light of reality, fails to past muster.

Perhaps I'm simply lazy.

Perhaps I'm in the wrong environment... I'm lacking certain things I need to really be myself.

Imagine an artist, a painter, who's never ever painted. Do you think he'd be a happy, clear thinking fellow? More than likely, he'd be walking around with this constant muse in his head blathering to him about this or that, but he doesn't understand it... doesn't understand what it is he wants to do.

Of course, there's always the fear of doing the different, the untested. Everyone battles that to one degree or another. It's interesting how I can very much embrace certain forms of change and new, but not others. No, others will keep me sequestered in my little condo-kingdom.

Anyway... another trip to see the parents.. and perhaps the most lingering of the things was a short 10 or 15 second conversation waiting for the plane, yes I flew this time, to take off. Rather, the conversation that wasn't had... all the things I might have said, but didn't.

This.. this is the story of my life.