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"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown that's the simplest way to try and explain how i feel.. i don't understand. today was the day of my final presentation.. and, by all accounts, it went well - exceedingly well. so be it. i'm fine with that. a graduation dinner was held in our honor, all eleven of us. i don't like such dinners, but i grasp their importance, so be it. i went. words were said.. the typical pointless drivel that gets said about us being the future and all that shit. each of us got an ingraved glass dealie - a nice dealie and a plaque. i'm not sure how to better describe them, so leave it at nice. words were said for each person.. something funny, something positive.. if you've even been to such a thing, you know the drill. i'm last. i'm nearly always last. this is what i don't understand. the words about me were to the effect of.. i was a leader (the leader?) of the group at the start and i was the leader of the group at the finish. later words were said in private... that people fully expect and look forward to the day i'm a senior leader.. why am i a leader? why would i be a senior leader? why me above all others? why such words heaped on me? why did the vp of sales shake my hand say "it looks like i need to get to know you quick." why did the president of my division shake my hand and say, "i'm sure we'll be seeing more each other very soon." why? A place like Alaska - April 07, 2012 Dowton Abbey - February 01, 2011 Dowton Abbey - January 31, 2011 Something of an update - January 16, 2011 What to do... - January 01, 2011 |
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