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Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

a step too far
April 24, 2006 - 7:45 pm

i recall the day quite clearly. i'm sure i posted about it. i was in stamford, ct at the time.. about 1 hour fron nyc.

i recall the guy who was trapped above all the flames in the south tower who called into the radio station.. to say everything was good, they were ok and waiting for the fire department to get them.

i recall being totally stunned when the building fell... and it clicked in my head that voice was dead.

i recall trying to watch some of the video on the static filled antenna only tv in our little kitchen.. the channel with the best picture was the spanish one..

none of us spoke/understood spanish.

i recall.. hearing united 93 had crashed in western pa.. and thinking -- western pa? that's... odd. i'm from western pa. could this plane have crashed where i grew up? on my house?

i recall.. calling my mom at work.. and she was crying, talking about how my brother and his wife (both in navy) were going to go to war.

i recall.. being the first one to break the news that a plane had hit one of the towers in the office.

i recall.. us all agreeing that it must have been some little lost prop plane.

enough with what i recall. someone asked the other day if i was going to see the movie and i said no.

i say no.. not because it's something i want to forget or don't care about, it's not that at all.

the person who asked me was kinda shocked. i also said i had no desire to hear the 911 tapes.. she did. we have very different views on the issue it seems.

i say no to the movie.. because no matter how much it gets trumped up as a documentary -- it's not. no matter how much it wants to be a patriotic movie -- it's not.

perhaps i'm just way too cynical.. but hollywood makes movies for one reason and one reason only -- to make money.

in truth, the premise of the movie, as i understand it makes me sick. i've heard nothing of.. read nothing of.. the profits of the movie to be totally donated -- they should be.

i'm not saying they aren't being donated .. i'm just saying i've heard that.

the idea.. that people are making the movie with the eye to make money (and, while i said i might be cyncial above.. tell me why else if not for profit or to raise money for a charity is it being made..) is deplorable.

deplorable is a good word. i hope i'm spelling it right.

i don't understand why people want to hear 911 tapes. no, that's not true.. i understand why.. i just don't agree with it.. or, rather, feel that way.

as the above shows.. it's a complicated situation.

i'm sure, to some, with a close connection.. the tapes can provide closure. for them.. i can see that it makes sense. for the world at large though.. i dunno. i guess that's the glory of choice. they can be made public and i don't have to hear them.

so the tapes don't bother me.

the movie.. does. the movie.. is a step too far.