"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

61st out of 221, but disappointed
October 15, 2005 - 4:32 pm

in the tourny, at the first break (one hour in) i was in first place. yes, first. i'd been in to top 20 for the majority of the time.

at the second break i was 12th. not quite as good as first.. but still, pretty damn respectable i think.

some 20 to 25 minutes into the third round.. while sitting in about 19th i choose a silly hand to take a stand against a guy i thought was just.. bullying people -- betting big to make them fold. perhaps he was doing that on some hands, but i ended the tourny in 61st (out of 221).

by the story of my life.. i mean everything is going alone fairly good. i see something or get some idea in my head and i'm off to work on that. the thing is.. whatever's gotten into my head isn't a good idea.

no, that's not right. i stand by my thinking he was bullying people. anytime someone takes down six pots in a row.. there's something funky going on.

so the idea is sound.. but i can't do whatever it is.. i can't get to whatever it is..

i don't want to say i have poor time or bad luck, because that's just bullshit. luck is luck. luck is just another word for chance. i refuse to believe that the fickle hand of fate cares and plays favorites.

i should have waited for a better hand or a better flop. i made a disasterious choice.

that's what i do. my idea might be good.. but my execution sucks.

makes me want to try and do fewer things.. makes me want stick in the world of thinking about things and not so much doing them.

of course, the only way to get good at execution.. is to go and keep trying. i know this.

through 1 hour, 1st place.

through 2 hours of poker.. i was 12th. 12th. probably another 3 hours.. and i could had a chance at the trip.

perhaps next time. perhaps next time i won't make the wrong choice. perhaps.