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"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown no, you can't do yourself. i don't mean give someone bill gate's money. i mean, do you know someone who'd "make" a better bill gates? someone who just "fits" a life? i'm not being clear i fear. oh well. tomorrow.. i have my interview. i dearly hope it goes well. i hope they tell us that day what's what. i hope to get to have the ackward converstation friday with my boss. as for more schooling.. i've sent out another email, waiting to see what a prof thinks. though my tentative plan is to find a gmat study guide this weekend.. and work on math for a two weeks or so.. mixing in some verbal stuff, but i've always done well with verbal. phd program needs high math score. as for schools? yes, i have three in mind. debating a fourth. wait no. i have 2 for sure.. and debating two more. why go for a new job if i'm still debating school? simple, where i'm at now fucking sucks. totally and completely. i got a semi-bitching at today because i didn't know what was going on at an account. well, if you give me an account.. i think you should also give me the info - no? makes sense. i'm too f'ing busy to sort out what's what and do the work myself. if that's what's expected, i need to lose about 1/4 of my accounts. all i do all damn day is answer my phone and respond. i don't have the luxury of being proactive more once or twice a day -- and my motivation there is purely to save my ass some trouble down the line. in fact, that's my sole motivation at work -- not to get pissed of customer phone calls. why? well other than they arn't fun.. i don't have the time to sit and listen to somone bitch and moan. i get too many other calls that go to v-mail.. which lead to other people getting pissed off.. and more non-revenue generating phone calls.. and a downward spiral. in short, in the three months i've been back, i'm already back at the frustration and annoyance threshold as when i first left. which begs the question, why did i come back? i don't know. i really don't. i tell people who ask "i lost a bet". it's funny and defuses the question. anyway. tonight.. i'm going to review my paperwork for tomorrow, read up on the position, find a notebook (leather binder thingie) and think of some questions. A place like Alaska - April 07, 2012 Dowton Abbey - February 01, 2011 Dowton Abbey - January 31, 2011 Something of an update - January 16, 2011 What to do... - January 01, 2011 |
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