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work and whatnot
August 17, 2005 - 5:37 pm

boss asked me about picking up more accounts -- some strategic ones. for the first time in since i've wanted to, this set up the conversation i've wanted to have.

up to now, people have been out.. both too busy.. i avoided it.. and whatever else.

i pushed back with well, if they are strategic, i'm not sure it makes sense to send them to me as i want to move on asap. we talked about that for a bit.

i'm sort of conflicted about it. the accounts he wants could be nice to have.. but like i said, i want out asap.

i'm not sure how the current rep is going to take my getting these accounts.. especially since i asked if i'd be trading any back and was told "probably not". so this would be a gain for me with no offloading.

i'm not happy about that. i think my reply will be.. lets go over the accounts and see how big my desk would be... and i take these accounts i'm giving up lots of little noise accounts.
this would make me happy. big folks that know what's going on.. are good. big folks who understand what's what.. are good. little guys who need/want evertyhing ASAP and demand this and that.. but don't buy shit.. are no good.

in other words, i want to spend my time with profitable people. imagine that.

i think i might also push to get a few asshole accounts off my desk.

i'm surely going to push to get a timeline for my getting off a desk all together.. though we are still down 1.5 people.. so i know that's a wet dream at best.

i've now spoken with two people about the phd idea.. and both seemed very positive that i'd be good at it. it seems i'm generally thought of as someone who is good at explaining things. to be honest, i think i'd really enjoy the teaching part.. but not all of it.

oh no, the bullshit other students pulled wouldn't fly to well with me.

i dunno how i'd handle the research part of things.. i'd like that, but i dunno if i'd like being _forced_ to do it to make tenure.

eh, i have time to think. too late for this fall.. so this would be in preparation for next fall at the soonest. perhaps i'll check out the gmat.. i'll need to retake that.

mebbe i'll use that a judge.. if i score over 650, i'll apply. if i don't, i won't.