"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

tuesday
August 02, 2005 - 8:14 pm

from around 7 to 7:40 my fat ass was actaully out the apartment and in the little exercise room my complex has. biked for a while.. then tried one of those scary looking elipitcal trainer thingies for a bit.. and went back to the bike.

nothing staggering.. but i did go.

i'm more and more sure every day that i fucked up -- i never should have taken this job. it's not that it's 'hard' -- it's all the shit you have to put up with.

i have some 200+ accounts, though only a handful call with an regularity. despite how often they call, each feels they are the _most_ important account and few if any people have paitence to leave a voicemail.

it's more than just that though.. litereally, i am the 'bitch' of everyone. if fedex or ups fucks up (and they do with astounding regularity) it's my fault. if something isn't in stock in the closest warehouse, they (granted only a select few do this) expect me to pay for it to arrive overnight or whatever.

eh. whatever. this isn't going to be whine and moan session. i fucked up and took the job. granted i thought i'd be dealing with a different level of customer.. but hey, people quit and plans change.

my real problem is that i don't know what i want to do. i'm getting to fucking old to be saying that.. but it's true.

i hope if rains soon. too damn humid.