"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

job hunting
July 17, 2005 - 4:08 pm

it's a serious deal.

however, it's not exactly the kinda of serious deal i wanted when i signed up for this.

my stress is that.. i recognize just how bad the office is right now -- just how unstable it is. we are down one rep.. another is pretty new and is handling an account base about half the size of the rest of us -- sadly for her, lots of bullshity customers that eat up tons of time but never quite manage to buy anything. or at least not yet. she's doing a good job with them. my point is just that's she overworked.

my account base is a good 10% bigger than it was when i was here last.. and it's got it's fair share of noise accounts.. and is largely, if not totally, unsatisfying.

all that being said.. i recognize that i must do what i think is best for me.

sometime this week.. i hope to have a chat with my boss about things.. but i'm doubtful anything can be done or will be promised.

so.. tonight, i hope to re-read my resume.. i'm really just debating listing some courses i took in mba school.. on one hand, it seems nice, but on the other hand.. kinda of a waste -- afterall, what i took is easily infered from the degree. in fact, it seems.. like a filler. i want to avoid fillers.

i've done some driving around and i'm kinda surprised to see how many companies have offices in the area.. one of the perks to moving to this area. quite a few companies in this town.. and i'm close to two biggish cities.

in a way.. looking for a new job feels kinda like.. a betrayal. if i do leave the office, it will be a true fucking for them. the second time i've left.. and surely i won't ever be invited back.
this bothers me a bit.

however, the fact remains.. if i'm not happy, i need to do what i need to do.

right?