"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

depressed
July 04, 2005 - 8:58 pm

of course, in this.. i failed.

i'm never quite sure how to deal with this post-bout, as it seems anything done/said now.. could just futher muck things up. is it best to let things go?
i don't know. perhaps this will get read.. and some measure of explantion for my behavior will be understood. perhaps not.

i'm thinking.. that in a month when my health benefits kick in.. i'm seriously considering checking out the mental health aspect.

on the other hand.. i did go shopping whilst in depression mode and i did purchase a box of sleeping pills. i doubt one box will cause much harm.. lord knows i've enough body weight.

i've spent the vast majority of this three day weekend... alone, which is no shock and probably a cause of today's bout. i've enjoyed watching the Tour.. playing poker -- which, as always, has been might swingie.

i finished Freakonomics -- a book i recommend and started Crimes Against Logic.. which, i think, i can already recommend.

odd that i enjoy books on critical thinking... yet it seems i'm not very good at applying it to myself.

i suppose the rout question i need to address is: do i want to do something or not?

anything else.. is well, secondary.