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CT or NC?
March 25, 2005 - 2:15 pm

consider the pros and cons?

what does one do when the pros and cons can't really be known until the option's picked?

i'm on the clock.. one job offer hanging, hoping for one or two more. well, really just one.

do i return to whence i came and move back to CT?

do i take the road not yet travled and move to NC?

really, both jobs are similair.. one is still physical junk (telecom stuff) and one is selling money (loans). i can see the path with in CT, or how it should go.. things are fuzzy in NC.

i think NC would be more personally rewarding and that does matter.. but i can't be sure that's true and that i'd like the work.

i know CT would be good money-wise.. and that matters, but i can't/won't move for money.

i'd like the weather better.. i'm a north/cold kinda guy. fuck the humidity down here.

near hartford, near NYC, near boston.. all pluses for CT. i'd be in a lot more control of my career in CT.

NC would be a random place after NC with some control, but def in the south or mid-west. again.. the climate thing kicks in. though i do love a nice southern drawl.. so there's good and bad.

just ran some numbers.. mmm.. numbers.

my financial prognosis looks good in CT. wish i knew the numbers for NC, but hopefully i will early next week. i'm going to call them monday and push. tick-tock, tick-tock. i think i rocked the interview, so barring some fuckup in reference check, life should be good.

do i have a real hangup with CT? i do. a small one, well two.

1) i feel like i left and failed. i'll be going back with a grad degree and i know some folks there don't even have college degree. sales ain't about degrees, it's a soft skill. however, the degree would make me better suited to be a manager, so it is a plus.

i shouldn't feel ackward about it. i left on good terms and my boss wants me back. i just feel.. kinda funny about it. perhaps it's a slight sting of pride, but that shouldn't matter. i'll be at my old job for say a year or so.. and then i'll make myself turn to outside sales for a year or so and then move into managment. a basic plan.

weird how just three years ago i'd have balked (and did kinda balk) at being a manager and now i think i'm ready. nothing has changed but my preceptions of myself. odd.

2) the job isn't exactly fulfilling. i don't get a sense of good workds from it.. but that can be addressed. i can do some kinda charity work or whatever.

i can't be sure i'd get the warm fuzzy from NC, so can't really factor that in.

in the end... it's the hope that NC will pay more that intrigues me. i doubt it.

i think i'm CT bound.

which brings up some curious ideas, but then that's me.. always off in left field thinking of odd happenings.

chances: 70% CT and 15% NC and 5% other

decision time frame: by april 8th at the very, very latest.

anxity level: nearing red-line, so much freaking pointless school work to do.

regrets: procastinating so fucking much and making these last five or so weeks hellish

outlook: oddly uncaring. the job offer stands regardless of finishing my degree.