"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

late resolutions
March 15, 2004 - 11:36 pm

it's hard to sort out what's really on my mind.

as i knew i did, i bombed my stat test. i need to verify that getting a C in a class is fine as long as my overall average is over 3.0. i'm 95% sure, so i'm not really worried about that.

francesca and filip came back from vacation and she gave me a bottle of rum as thanks for watching the cats. from what she knows, which is little more than uneducated me, it's very good rum.

in thinking about my past entries and whatnot, i've decided i'm done with being the one to drive contact. shutting done the little social activity i do is what i'm really doing i suppose.

getting ready for the possibility of living alone in monarch house.

in all honestly, it's probably the best way to go. afterall, why should i force others to give me attention? if they want to give it, then we'd be talking. if they don't, why make them feel obligated?

not to mention the fact that i seem to lack the skills necessary to clearly express what i'm thinking. to me, i think i'm pretty plain to understand, but it seems yet another fault of mine is to be a mystery to others.

i need to read more.

i need to start learning chinese.

pretty much.. i need to start doing some construtive with my time and stop incessantly checking email.. looking at trillian and all that crap.

what else... hrm.. oh yes, in terms of dating, i've decided i want to be the one hit on, the one who gets approached.

the side effect of this is that i need to get myself in shape.

that's the madness in my method.