"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

going to go out
January 02, 2004 - 2:55 pm

the office is closed and school is out.. so i have nothing to do. i could literally sleep all day.. and if jon wasn't here, i probably would.

i could, and probably should, call the one person i know that's back and see what she's doing.

i really do like the printer and digital camera my 'rents got me for xmass. neither one is top notch, but i don't need that. they didn't need to get me anything - of course that's what parents do.

did i talk about the long talk i had with the guy down stairs on new years? i think i did.. if not, well - there's this guy i don't really like. he's an idiot in some ways.. but smart. know the type? he thinks he gets away with things.. but that's just because no one bothers to call him on shit. the kinda guy who can coast through school getting B's and some A's - not having to worry about studying.

anyway - very out of sorts for me - we got into this talk about shit. i felt good after the talk.. but i really can't recall what i said or what he said.

i havn't seen him since, which isn't unusual at all. he comes up when he wants to drink and that's about it.

today i work up and thought.. what if after the talk he and i had, he killed himself?

he's talked shit doing that before - can be very depressive, but wasn't that i recall that night. we drank tons though.. three people drank two bottles of rum - each bottle holds about 33 shots.. so that's 66 beers or 22 beers each. atleast, someone told me a liter is about 33 ounces.. and that one shot is an ounce.

i suppose.. no matter how you do the math, it's a lot of booze for one night.

jon and i did nothing yesterday, well nothing other than watch an all day marathon of nypd blue.

i think i am going to go call her.. i'm itching to get out of this apartment.