"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

a brief update
December 30, 2003 - 5:17 pm

nothing too big has happened.

thinking, wondering and dreaming as usual. i'm also the proud new owner of a bran new hard disc. let's hear it for software that tells you a disc is going to die before it actaully does.

i also saw.. that i got called arrogant. not that long ago, such a thing would have bother me. i'd have found myself dreaming up some response.

now though.. i'm ok with that. if that's what she thinks of me, then that's her right.

personally, i don't think arrogant is all that bad a thing to be - not when you compare it to with how i've treated her. no, i'm much worse than arrogant.

doesn't mean i'm wrong in the all the things i've said - i'm not.

it just means i didn't go about things in anywhere near the best manner.

the last exchange we had i said some harsh things - i don't regret the meanings of the things i said, just how they came out. though, i think part of me typed those things for a reason - to put the final nails in the coffin of our talking.

long, long over due.. but finally done.

overall, i'm at ease and at peace with things.

going forward, i've picked out a few goals and things to do and let's see if can actaully get some of them done!