"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

an ending and grades
November 18, 2003 - 2:53 pm

perhaps one day you'll find someone you'll be willing to take a risk for, someone you deem valuable enough to leave your comfort zone for.

perhaps one day i'll find someone else i'll be willing to take a risk for, someone i deem valuable enough to leave my comfort zone for.

but for now, i'm going to retreat and admire the walls which i've built. the moat that i have filled. the arsenal of my self-defense and know that without a doubt it fend off anyone else i meet.

in truth, with the majority time of my state of mind, i think it's best.

misguided, foolish and clumsy as it was.. i think this was the last time. it just seems to me that if you wanted this to work.. something would have started up when i im'ed you about sending you the song.. or in these past posts, but nothing did.

i don't know what else to say about that.

i havn't posted in my other diary for months, many months.. but it's alive again. i'm doubtful anything good will come from it, but that's not the issue.

oddly, i am neither happy nor sad - i guess this met my low set expecations and now i know for sure.

in true, any effort of contact other than through dland would have been a huge success. i think it's fitting what i imagine our final exchange is concluded on dland where our first exchanges were made possible.

i'm babbling now. trying to avoid doing accounting homework. though, i'm quite surprised to see that right now i have two a's and one b+ (3.77 gpa) of course, i need a's on all my final exams to keep the two a's and pull the b+ up to an a. most likely i'll end up with one a, one b and one b+ (3.43) perhaps next semester i'll be able to focus on school.

hey, ycats.. if you read all this, i'm curious.. what's your take on this stellar example of my dorkdom? =)