"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

off on a tangent
July 30, 2003 - 7:51 pm

i was supposed to go to cedar point yesterday and come back today, but we didn't go. so i've had two days off work with nothing and no point for the days.

i'm sort of surprised at how happy i was not to be at work. i mean, no one wants to be at work, but usually i'm ambivalent about it. i know i need to work for money, so i do it.

yeah, i'm an indentured servant, but so are you.

but today i was like.. i have seven days of work left and to be honest, i don't want to work a single one. i've no drive to be there. there's no point to what i do. they are off considering who they want to hire to fill my spot and, to be bluntly honest, they don't need to fill it.

wish they did. i like the people there, but there's just not the demand.

anyway.

i spent a great deal of time with my friend, i suppose she's a friend. i'm not sure what to call her. though in about two weeks, i won't be calling her at all. atleast i doubt we will talk once i'm gone.

she's trying to sort out her school and car situation. the great debate about fixing her 1995 piece of shit or getting a new/used car. toss in a healthy dose of figuring out what she wants to go back to school for and... for some reason she's not sleeping well.

on one hand i feel bad for her, so many big ass choices all at one time, but on the other, she got herself into this position.

she keeps asking me what would i do if i were her and i've told her - i can't/won't answer that. no one should. like it or not, it's up to her.

i'm happy to play devil's advocate for her, to debate with her what she should do. in the end, she has to figure out the best choice.

huh, i didn't mean to go into that, but there i went.

i guess it was easier to ramble on about that than it was to go over the junk i was thinking.