"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

mba, new years and reality
December 31, 2002 - 6:04 pm

last time it talked to my parents about the MBA idea, i got a lot of shit.

tonight my parents call and say that they want to help me as much as they can, if i decide to get my mba. they understand one big problem i have is my leased car..and so they called to say that they would subsidize (as needed) the cost of my car while i'm in school.

in short, they are now doing thier best to urge me on.

i'm still undecided in the matter, which i said.

of course that lead to my dad ruining what was a rather nice call by saying "well if you don't you better find a new job huh?" nevermind the fact that the last time we talked, he said i shouldn't go to back to school and that i should stay where i'm at.

what's the deal?

i pshawed them a bit, saying that i wanted to do this myself if i did it. however i have no doubt i'll take every stinkin' penny they care to offer.

i need to hear from the last school...and then i'll decide.

i'm almost thinking i should research the dates for pitt and see if i can still apply there...though i loath the idea of essays.

tonight i'm sort of supposed to go to a 'party'. it's in the quotes cause it's not really a party. i was looking forward to going. i'd actaully be socializing with more than one person. then today i learned that i would be the only single person there...with three to four couples. i soured on the idea.

plan b is to get dinner with heather, watch a movie or something...which is about the only socializing i do.

it's funny. we spend more time with each other and neither of us has any sort of sexual desire for the other.

well, i guess that's not funny.

plan c is it to sit here alone, which is what i usually do. the notable exception is when E got me to go to time square in 2000.

E and i don't really talk anymore. i'm not sure why. well, there's no reason why. we really only were friends online, only met like twice. she's not online anymore or has a new nick that i dunno..so we don't talk.

i need more real life friends.

i want reality.

somethings never seem to change.