"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

frustrated.
December 20, 2002 - 5:05 pm

i've already come to the realization that i'm never going to truly love a job...i've no dream idea of what i want to do or be. my motivation to go to mba school is to get me some more of that learning stuff so i can be making more money at a job i'm not satisifed with. the logic being that if i'm going to be unhappy, i may as well make as much as possible.

i'm not so sure that's my current thinking. once i get rid of my lease (two years down the road) i'll get a car i can better afford. i'm making decent payments on my debts.. so long term my financial situation will improve here. i'll never be rich, but i've never had the massive urge to be rich (but hey, let's face it if we could all be rich..we would, no?).

some things have happened in the past few weeks that have kinda started to sink into my head. i've never worked a place where i really felt people liked me. heck, i've never been _any_ place where i felt people really like me.

i'm almost happy at the idea of going to work. granted there's bits of it really don't like, but overall..i think i'm starting to.

RIT is start in march, i'm not sure i'm ready to really decide this with a start date that soon. WVU starts in july. i hope i get into WVU.

i'd like to have my mba. i dunno. perhaps i'm just sabataging (yeah, i know that's not how you spell it) that idea.

yet again, i wish i really had someone to physically talk to about things.

i'm frustrated.