"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

que sera sera.
September 19, 2002 - 7:05 pm

so, yea. it's true enough i learned more last night thanks to the pretzel that i ever did writing here.

parting thoughts? hrm. i should have something shouldn't i?

it really and truly is all about preception.

someone very wise once said that truth is like a river. i really didn't understand it at first. i thought it was the kind of silly thing people say when they are just trying to make others think they know something they really don't. i've come to understand that it's probably one of the truest things i've ever heard.

i've never been one to admire others. i've always hated the question "if you could have dinne with anyone, who would it be?" or "if you could be anyone, who would you want to be?"

the first is silly, what good is a dinner with someone? i mean really. you think that having a conversation while eating and drinking is going to be a wonderous thing?

the second is even worse. it's based on the premise that someone else is worth more than you are...that the life of someone else a value yours doesn't. that's human insecurity talking. that's misguided, misdirected...desire. that's the human urge to only see a simple answer, even if it's not an answer at all.

i suppose everyone has to come to his or her own decsions, learn things at his or her own pace. perhaps to even not learn things at all. to choose to swallow the every day drivel that gets presented as important.

me, i think i'm going to enjoy tilting at my windmills. i don't much anymore what anyone else thinks of them. they are mine and that's all they need to be.

i like the idea of choosing what i want based on what i think, not anyone else. input is fine, input is good, but you can't live a life doing what you think you should. you need to do what you know you want to. i can't think of anything worse than that. i know i've done it for years.

perhaps i'll even go insane. it's only two letters difference, so what's the big deal?

anyway, my time here is up.

thanks for the notes, the signings and the emails. hopefully i've provided at least a passing distraction to some of you.

que sera sera