"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

bars, the world and abuse
August 23, 2002 - 11:59 pm

i don't relate. i don't enjoy the situation. i'm just not comfortable. i don't have good stories. i feel totally ignored.

keep in mind 90% of the time i go to a bar, like tonight, it's cause people i know are going and the above is still how i feel.

i can sort of understand it when i go alone.

i think i'm going to make an effort to make my entries here less about the world as i see and more about my day, more inline with a typical diary.

why? why not? the world around me doesn't matter. my world is the one that should matter and i think that's where i need to focus my thinking.

of course, we'll just have to see how long this new diary idea lasts and how long it is before i go back to bar.

"come on, abuse me more i like it.."

i must like it. i always do break promises to myself and all i ever seem to get is abuse.