"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

best left to memory
August 20, 2002 - 8:39 pm

i wish i had the stones to go insane.

that's an odd expression "the stones". i don't have any stones.

i'm such a coward. i am. i'm only brave when i'm hard at work sabotaging myself. i'm full speed ahead then. i know situation is already fucked up, so there's no worry.

i'm really not that big of a contradiction. you just don't have the frame of reference to understand. the mean is lost. no not lost. it's never fully conveyed.

these are the eyes i want you to remember.

i try not to look in mirrors anymore. unless i'm at the barber, then i like to see my black eyes.

there's so very little that i want around me. i wish i had a dream, a self appointed higher goal. there's not one i want, so no point in pretending to set one. afterall i know i don't really want it.

i'd not want to be so insane if i had a point.

saying i want to be happy isn't a point, a goal. it's a result. getting the goal gets you the result.

i have seen things you will never see.

something are indeed best left to memory.