"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

why not?
August 11, 2002 - 12:20 am

this is the first such invitation i've received since moving back here.

at some point, possibly tomorrow i should make a cast of characters entry.

i was sitting at the bar, one of eight people at the table..and it occured me that i had nothing in common with any of them.

this made me sad.

they could talk for hours and i could sit silent and this was a perfectly acceptable way for things to be. intoxicated or not, i just don't relate well to anyone i know.

my voice seems funny when i do talk. it's like i either talk very softly and no one hears me or my voice isn't clear so people just ignore what i say. i don't know which or what combination it is.

i think i can feel myself going insane. my grip on things is slipping. i'm fairly certain of that.

more and more i like the idea of me going insane. it makes life simplier. i have to worry less, plan less. it's becoming a good thing in my mind.

what i want, what i'd like too be never happens. so why not just go with the flow, stop fighting?