"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

low opinion
April 23, 2002 - 9:18 pm

see, i had this dinner thing to go to after work. so i left at 3pm and drove to long island. i got lost once. it's my third time driving there and probably my last...so it figures i got lost. the dinner was with my and the locations largest customer. anyway, i got there at like 4:30 and i'm now getting home. i didn't envision close to five hours for this shindig.

i packed nothing tonight. that doesn't matter. the fucking movers decided they are picking me up saturday...which fucking sucks. i have friday off, which is good. i'll have tons of time to pack all day friday so no more packing this week. i told the lady with no exception my junk must be on site sunday and she said not to worry.

i am now worried about this.

i'm over the whole truck in the back. it will take like an hour tops to load my junk and so for an hour five or six cars spaces will be blocked in. fuck them.

my mood is sour, bitter...angry.

i got myself all worked up with some pretty candid mental conversations i had on the way home. i have a much better or perhaps fuller is the right word for my choice to leave my company. we'll see if my mood carries over to tomorrow. if so, i'm going to lay some things out for jeff. i doubt i will. i never do. i'm a wimp.

that's me in a nutshell, i'm basically a coward. i do what i do cause i think it's utimately the easiest path.

i really do have a very low opinion of myself.