"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

tv is my numbing drug
April 07, 2002 - 6:27 pm

i like it simple. i wish my mind was this simple. this is about my words, not fancy images i can find and load. if i was an artist i'd put my pictures here, but i'm not.

i think i should be banned from all attempts at interpersonal relations.

i took a drive today, just a short one. i ended up on a street down in greenwich. there's a lot of houses there that i like. a few i don't. greenwich is a funny place. people think that everyone from there is rich, but they arn't. there's probably more poor type people there than rich people.

other than that i did nothing today. i woke up at like 7am. that was odd. i went to bed pretty much in bag, but woke up earlier than nomral. i was expecting to sleep past noon for sure.

i kinda cleaned up, so i guess i did something. i need to do laundry.

the history channel has been on all day, literally. they had a moive called the lost battalion on. it was a very good movie with ricky shroder of all people as the main military officer. i like the opening best. he's walking through one of the trenches. there are soldiers sleeping, smoking, talking. he's stepping over out strechted legs. there's rockets going off and gun fire. it was a picture of a typical day in a trench. there was no major assult going on or anything like that. i'm not sure why, but i really liked it. it set the tone for the whole movie.

there's so many things i need to do. little things, big things, thing things. i'm a very slow learner coupled with a mind who likes to think it can think. a not so very good combination.

the story of d.b. cooper is on. i've seen this like twenty times. i like the story. it makes me think of my own little crime plans.

i've noticed that for sometime i've taken to blurting things out when i'm alone. just a quick one or two words. it's kind of odd. sometimes i say them with such force. it's almost always one of two things i say. i'm not at all sure what it means or why i say them.

i detest the idea of taking chemicals to control the chemicals in my brain. that would saying i am not correct and need to be redone. i am how i am.

i use the tv to distract my mind. the constant droning of it occupies my mind and deadends it. that's probably why i don't do drugs.