"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

my own prison
April 07, 2002 - 8:42 am

i'm not sure why i don't. it's what i say i want to do, but i never seem to. it's like behaviors are ingrained in me and don't let me do what i'd like to do. i never 'learned' how to not give a shit and just do something. i'm to...i'm not sure of the world...i tend not live in the moment, but think about the moment.

i live inside my own prison and i've lost the keys. sometimes i pretend it's not a prison, but i know it is.

i can't think or a worse state of affairs for a person to be in. i should have all the tools to correct this situation that is of my own making. people say you just need to do it. perhaps i have me all wrong. perhaps i don't want to do it. perhaps i want me to be miserable. perhaps people are wrong and i can't do it on my own and i need someone to help me.

i'm babbling.

by the way, thousand island dressing mixed with bleu cheese dressing is excellent for dipping wings.