"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

manic monday
March 4, 2002 - 11:57 am

other things. on the way to the interview, i left really early. a lot earlier than i needed to. i thought there'd be more traffic northbound, but there was _none_. that is until i got to exit 27 then we backed up. my exit was 27a, the next one. it was like 8am and i was on pace to be about hour and fifteen minutes early, so the traffic didn't bother me. it turned out there was an accident and i sat for about a hour. i'm glad i was early. a guy two spots back got impatient and decided to drive up the shoulder. he only got up one car when he realized that two cars up was a cop. i got a good laugh at him.

it was kinda weird sitting there. i wanted to go, i wanted them to move whatever it was, i really didn't care what the problem was. then i realized that the longer i sat, the worse the problem was...and the more likely someone died in an accident. it's not a sure thing someone did, but i was about 100 yards from where it happended and couldn't see any of it, but...if you sit with three lanes totally closed down for an hour, that's gotta be something pretty nasty, no?

i'm not at all sure what i want to do with myself. if i'm offered the job, i will take it..no doubt about that. i think i'll move up that way. that move will put me closer to the school i was thinking about going to for an mba, so that makes sense. it's another sales job though. my thinking is..do the job for a year while i get my mba..and then tell them to piss off and find something i like with my new degree. it's truly dumbfounding what an mba opens up. it's like if you get one, you're some kinda genius. did i spell that right? that amuses me.

i'm also considering the move back home. i dunno if i can take that though...not with my car and all.

i want recommendations for books to read, so email me, note me or guestbook me.

there's an argument about a tree. it's stood for like 300 years, since before the town was founded. the power company wants to cut it down cause it's dying and might fall on the power lines. townspeople say tough shit if it does, leave the tree alone. i wonder how much they will bitch when their cappicino makes won't work some early morning...or when the power goes off right in the middle of 'the big game'. we've never given much serious consideration to nature before..why start with a dying tree? is there a spotted owl in the tree?

i'm feeling very cynical today.

that's not quite right. i can't really put the words to what i feel. being cynical is just a symptom. i dunno if i was too peppy at the interview, i tried to be. he talked alot though. didn't ask me too much or really seem to care if i finished an answer. i kept good eye contact, i think.

did i ever mention i don't deal all that well with rejection? i think i did. i'm pretty sure i did. if not, i don't.

i updated my profile stuff.

don't forget, i want book recommendations.