"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

easily amused
Feb 25, 2002 - 7:32 pm

i think there's something about my apartment at night..or perhaps it's just the night that affects me.

i think the only thing i really like to do is sleep...which is kinda of ironic since when i'm asleep i don't get to enjoy anything. actaully the time i like best is when i'm between sleep and awake. where i control the dream i'm having...and perhaps realize it's a dream, but often think it's real.

i'm not sure why, but i only really wanted one person to respond to my last post. i think she understands the words i mean to say. i know there needs to be a balance between work and play, but...i can't ever find that.

there was talk last week of our office and the one upstate getting together and renting a party bus...since my office is all guys and theres only one girl upstate..and she doesn't go out to office things, the idea of strippers came up...and things went from there. everyone was talking about how much fun it would. i'm far from a sexual prude...but the idea repulsed me.

not so much the strippers, but that how people would be acting..how i'd be expected to act...i don't have the energy for that kind of acting anymore. it's hard enough getting through a day of work...

there's just something about me, about how my mind works. i don't know how to sum it up other than some words by kurt cobain..

i wish i was like you, easily amused.