"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

the status quo
Feb 17th, 2002 - 7:33 pm

anyway.

i don't like the options. no, not at all. none of them seem at all appealing, not the least bit interesting.

i'm trying to see what option i've missed, but that eludes me and i'm fairly positive i havn't missed any.

i type in alot of pointless junk here, i know...but well there's so many empty megs that andrew has for us to fill and i want to do my part. of course substance would be perfered. but well...the things of substance that go on in my life are few and far between. the things of substance that occur inside my head occur almost daily, but they are of a much more limited nature. by that i mean, i spend a lot of time thinking about a very, very small number of imporant things. the same things every day. i try to imagine them as some sort of rubic cube that i've got to solve...so i twist and turn them in my head, looking for an answer i like.

though, like the good fortune cookie of the other day said, accept facts with dignity.

my point is...i'm numb. i'm stagnant. i'm alot older and more boring than i have a right to be. i'm disillusioned, sarcastic, cynical and self-deceiving. i'm unhappy, introspective and gernally not all impressed with the status quo of everything.

more and more i like the idea of dosing this place with gasonline and just disappearing. max my credit cards with cash advances, empty my accounts, collect the pennies on my floor and just go somewhere.

i'm tired and bored to death with typing about cars and work and all that bullshit. these thinds matter, but on a second tier type mattering. they don't fit the top posts. they are important, but in a fluff sort of way. if you don't get what i mean, i can't explain it.

i'm not sure if that's dignity or not, but then...when have i ever let that slow me down??