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"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

all in my head
January 01, 2002 - 10:34 am

i am swept with alternating waves of boundless determination hopelessness. determination to correct my life, to live it how i want to and by the rules that make sense to me. hopelessness because it's a very daunting task. a task that is perhaps noble (if such a word can be used in this context) but nontheless futile. does it really make a differnce if live how i want to? does it make it any better when i get to say my fuckups are totally my fault? that my sucess is also all mine? is it a task that can even be done? is is possible to unlearn all the things i have learned? would doing this even lead to a 'happier' or 'more satisfying' life?

it's an idealistic quandry that i find myself in. it's the worst kind. just like the gorillaz's said, 'it's all in my head.'

(this way) / (that way)

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