"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

needy bastard
2001-12-10 - 8:41 pm

i'm not sure why. perhaps it's cause i woke up with early and my eyes hurt. i never like it when my eyes hurt. i can't decide if it's cause the room was cold or not pitch black. i think it's cause it's not pitch black. see, my windows are like 36" wide. blinds come in 37" which really means they are to short but a coupla inches. too long for the inside mounts and to short for the outside mounts. the bastards.

i smell like smoke. i just spent like 3.5 hours sitting in bar with vendors who took us out. it pisses me off. theres only 4 of us on the inside and two backed out right at the last minute. the third was out on vacation so that means it was me and my boss and two outside guys who came in for one drink. there were there vendor people there..so even at the best it was just 4 to 3. that's wrong. most of the night it was just me and jeff with the three of them. don't get me wrong. i like free food and drinks, but it's a waste of their time. the one was driving back to mass tonight. that's rough.

i don't think this has any relation to me not feeling the love. at least i hope it doesn't.

in fact, i'm not even sure what i mean by the 'love'. i guess i want a warm fuzzy to make me smile and feel good.

i'm sucha needy bastard eh?