"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

flip a coin?
2001-12-08 - 8:35 pm

i had a wonderful day. it was really good to get out and do something for a change. i saw ocean's eleven (a really good movie)...ate at olive garden and walked around a mall for a bit. i think i behaved myself pretty well. it was tough though. i definitly wanted to cave in to my impulses once or twice...i wonder if i should have? i'm not talking anything drastic or crazy. i'm talking about a hug other than when we met, or one of those awkwardly cute attempts to hold hands. things like that.

as is probably self evident, i don't go on dates hardly ever...i get all worried i'm being an idiot and start to babble. i don't really think i did that tonight, so i'm happy. of course, i don't get to decide if i was babbling or not...but well, enough of that.

i think i'm gonna get a new car tomorrow. i really want to. i think it's going to have to be a chevy, which i'm not to thrilled about. i think that's all the dealer who is going to give me this deal has...so i think it's going to be a malibu. they seem to be decent. i'm not a huge car person. i just want it to look nice and drive well. i don't get any kind of status buzz from cars.

i've cooled on the new job idea.

you know, i really need someone to sit down with and just talk about this to. someone who can give advice or thoughts, be them good or bad. perhaps i should just flip a coin...