"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

stand?
2001-11-02 - 7:19 p.m.

i thought it seemed that things had changed, but now i'm not so sure.

perhaps i look too deep for meaning, so that every little thing is sign.

i long for a time when there was no need for a sign. i long for the days when i could speak plainly and that the words i heard in returned were meant just as plainly.

trying to decifer what means this and what means that and what means absolutly nothing...just makes me mind grow old. i'm far to old already.

so tell, if you will, how does the world look through your eyes? can you put to words the things you want to say, but hesitate to utter? i apologize for the rudness of my asking, but you see i have no choice. i long to know the answer and i fear that only you hold that information. i can not read your thought. i can only misinterpert words and actions. we both seen that before.

i know i'm in no position to ask for anything, but it's the only way that i can know.

i would write more, but now i have to go. there's so much more i feel the need to try and explain, but i think that would only muddle up the situation.

perhaps i just delude myself and i'm not speaking plainly now myself. i'm not sure and i have no time to wonder.