"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

facts?
2001-10-18 - 8:05 p.m.

i'm not sure why it is our chats always leave me feeling much worse than when they started. i used to look forward to them. we used to have a really good banter going. i guess anymore, i see you log on and i'm faced with a delima. is it better to send you a message and hope things go wellish or just pass. i guess i should have learned to pass, but sometimes i'm awful slow. well, it's not so much that i'm slow as that i'm hopeful. you know that blissful idiot that refused to face the facts?

i think i need to face those facts now. i need to adjust my expectations. odd isn't? even after everything we've said, i still expect to get a message or an email from you saying you want to try again and yet everytime we talk i don't fail to say something wrong, something counterproductive.

am i facing facts yet?