"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

monday, monday
2001-09-24 - 6:35 p.m.

i worked over my resume last night. i added this and deleted that. i rewrote here and edited there. after each session of change i printed it out, so i could see what it really looked like. somewhere around the fourth printing i ran out of ink. i frowned as the page came out pure white and clicked reprint. again the page came out white and i frowned again...this time at my own stupidity. i sighed and grabbed the box that holds the extra cartridge and took it out, ignoring the neatly folded piece of paper inside the box. with the new cartridge installed i clicked print for a third time and again the page came out pure white. i took the new cartridge out and examined it for some sort of film over the ink dispenser, but there was none. that struck me as odd, don't they all have some kind of tab? i remembered the neatly folded piece of paper inside the box and took it out. it was dated 9-8-99, almost two years old to the day. it read, in my distinctive scrawl, 'need new cartridge'. i had to just shake my head and laugh. it made perfect sense. i put the note with the cartridge so that when i went to buy a new one, i'd have the old one to be sure i'd get the right one. why, in two years, i didn't get around to buying a new one is beyond me. i moved four times and each time, i moved an empty cartridge. i see the logic of my actions, but i'm amused at results.

i bought two cartridges today.

i picked up suit today.

i mailed my check to Datek and i hope the markets don't go up to much before i get all set up. i want to make some money.

i stopped into the local realtor guy to see the prices around here. goddamn, but i hate here anymore. the average rent has risen to over $200.00 more than i pay now, which means i'm going to be in for an rent increase.

i'm pissed that i make good money, but i can't even afford to buy a stupid one bedroom condo. hell, back home (i tend not to think of here as home anymore, just a place i've lived for two years) i could be buying a house or a very nice condo.

so many things to change. i'm not sure where to start. i think i'd much rather save myself a lot of time and energy and go insane. i'm sure that would make my posting here more entertaining.