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"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown it's sort of like i'm getting to the point where i'm ready to acknowledge what i've know all along. it's daunting though. i've made such a habit of carefully builing delusions of reality and living in them. i like the delusions. i want them to be true. sometimes i think that if i believe enough, that if i have enough faith...i can make them real. i think i'm almost to the point where i'm ready to say that's not true. that this is how things are and tough shit. i don't think i like that. a long time ago i wrote, or think i did, about this daydream thing i have alot. it's dark, there really isn't any color. i'm building this wall, brick by brick. over and over i'm placing this brick or that one. the wall never seems to grow though, but i keep placing bricks...trying to make it bigger, higher..thicker..whatever. it's an oddly peaceful thing to me. i'm very tempted to scrap this dairy and open a new one...one where no one knows it's me. i think i might like that. A place like Alaska - April 07, 2012 Dowton Abbey - February 01, 2011 Dowton Abbey - January 31, 2011 Something of an update - January 16, 2011 What to do... - January 01, 2011 |
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