"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

my toes...
2001-07-29 - 1:21 p.m.

only two months worth this time. why you ask? i going to change what it is i post about on here. i went back and read random entries of my past. the ones i liked were the ones about what i think, the sort where i spit out what ramblings i have inside my head on 'issues'. i don't like the whiney sort i've been postly lately...the ones 'highlighting' that i feel alone and depressed, if i say that once..then i shouldn't have to post it time and time again. to me it is self-evident.

i was thinking of about things only a moment ago, about how i get this really odd feel where i dissociate from everything around me. it get it about everthing, even the most basic of things. i was laying on my floor, listening to the news and looking at my feet. i started to wiggle, well flex my toes. first my left toes and then my right toes. over and over...left, then right, then left, then right. i couldn't explain why i started doing that. i couldn't explain how i was doing it. i wasn't thinking 'flex toes'. there was no voice in my head giving out orders to do this or that. i just was or rather they just were. probably half an hour i watched my toes. it was odd. i wasn't thinking it, i wasn't doing it...but yet i had to be doing it, they are my toes...arn't they?

sometimes i think odd things like that.