"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

Gemini...and the same.
2001-05-18 - 4:43 p.m.

'I congratulate you, Gemini, for purging the psyhic toxins from your system. Rarely have you been so courageously descisive in jettisoning deluded hopes and haunted dreams. Let's hope it means you've risen to a higher octave of selfrespect. It is too bad, though, that you had to perform so much heroism without a more appreciative audience. I'm also sorry to report that there's a bit more work to be done before the scouring will be complete. An old skeleton in your closet has begun doing funny things with your dirty laundry. I suggest you relocate the whole mess to a landfill or bonfire.'

Yikes! I've purged myself of delusions and haunted dreams! That means I've nothing left! What the hell was I thinking?!? I've spent YEARS carefully nurturing and refining my delusions. Why on earth would I get rid of them!? As for the skeleton in my closet playing with my dirty laundry...I wonder if I could bribe it to wash 'em.

Actually though, I thought that horoscope was more or less on point. I have done away with some 'delusions' for lack of a better word, but rest assured that my mainstay self-deceptions are still thriving. I'm tired of living life according to rules I don't really feel comfortable with. I'm tired of restraining myself from doing things that I want to do. It odd though. For so long I've said, no I won't do this, that even though I want to..it seems wrong to do. I guess I'm partially brainwashed.

One things for sure, I'm done with people give 'lip-service' to being friends, but then I never hear from them. As I've said many, many times...I don't many people that I talk to, let alone consider friends. I'm done with deluding myself people are friends just cause I send them emails and they reply...I mean friends would, at least now and then, send ME an email. Actaully, this sounds rather reminiscent of an older entry from the 'first batch' doesn't it? Ahh well, the more things change the more the stay the same.