"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

i'm absurd
April 30, 2006 - 9:59 pm

it makes no sense.. but it's really all that make sense. my subconscience screws me, or something to that effect.

it's the only thing i can figger that makes it all make sense.

i saw the wrong thing.. i avoid what i shouldn't avoid.. i procrastinate at all the wrong times. blah blah blah.

the fact of the matter is.. i'm wicked good at choosing the exact wrong tact to take. heck, i'll even say to myself.. this is wrong as i start to do whatever it is.

i think a big part of it is stuff i've talked about before.. the whole trust thing - how things went with friends when i was younger.

i'm scared, if that's the word, to succeed.

twist eh? absurd.

that's me.