"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

transition
March 24, 2006 - 10:27 pm

about feeling that "lost" i'm not sure what i want to do feeling.

about.. feeling torn between paths.

in many, many ways i've let myself be stuck in that position.

the sense of that feeling of being in transition has come and gone.. well, not, never quite "gone" -- strengthened and faded over time.

it's quite strong now.. and made all the stronger by various happenings in my life -- not too mention i'm getting far, far too old for this sort of shit.

the choice, i suppose, has always been the same.. but time and again, on other issues, i've shown my judgement to be... lacking. so i hesitate. i wait. i think. time passes. nothing changes. i grow older.

the ironic twist is that.. i know what i want, i just can't seem to find the path to get it -- or i can't seem to stop myself from fucking up my getting it.