"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

rainy day
October 08, 2005 - 5:55 pm

i'm thinking of buying wrist braces. i type a lot at work and good bit while here.. and i don't have the best of typing positions -- i can feel the pain/stress in my wrists.

i've been thinking alot about the vast number of things in my life.. that i don't quite like. the list is long. the list is varied. the list.. hasn't changed much in ages -- except to grow longer.

my mantra idea of "i heard sirens" is a nice cosmetic bandaid.. but it's yet to motivate me to do something.

i've become lazy and stuck in the rut i made.

the thing about getting out of the rut is that i don't know which way to go.. which thing to try and address first.. which thing bothers me the most.. so i spend time thinking about it, but not so much time doing anything about it.

it of course being the massive list.

some things i can't do alone or need the input/help/agreement of others. most are up to me.

perhaps what i'm really telling myself is that i like the rut and don't want to get out of it. perhaps the problem is really just trying to something because that's what i see others doing.

perahps i'm just in a dumpy mood since it's been raining all day.. and i've had a wicked bad run at poker.