"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

job talk
September 04, 2005 - 12:13 pm

1) i'm unsettled - for two reasons. any job change is big thing and i think it's good to a tad unsure of things. but.. mostly i'm unsettled because i don't want to have the converstation with my current boss. i understand the position of the office -- and it's weak position is a reason i want to leave.. and i know that my leaving will make it worse.

i would be, in effect, fucking (in a bad way) my current co-workers.

i'd also be not welcomed back.

however, these arn't good reasons to staty - are they?

2) i feel good. for whatever reason, the concept of going to work for this new company.. feels good. perhaps it's my recent reading up on personality types (i'm an intj) and matching up what should be good for an intj and this job that gives me so measure of assurance i'll be happier there.

i'm not all together sure i'll be super happy, but i think it's a step in the right direction.

since it's an insurance company, it offers all sorts of benefit plans and wellness plans i'm finding myself very motivated to take advantage of.

but.. it's more than that. today, when asked what do i do.. i downplay it. it's like i'm embrassed. i don't feel that when i hear myself saying i work in insurance.

i think it's a marginally better use of my grad degree -- though not exactly in marketing. a local university offers graduate certificate programs.. and one is in insurance (imagine that) and i find the idea of taking those classes something i'd like to do -- provided i do take the job.

yes, despite all this talk.. i still find myself hedging somewhat.

this goes back to being unsettled.. and the third reason, the main reason, i'm not altogether positive this is the best move long-term. i'm sure it's a good move short-term.. but i'm tired of job hopping.

i want a career. i want things long-term.

anyway. today. today i'm going to clean.