"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

am i worried? overly concerned?
June 26, 2005 - 8:19 pm

it bothers me that i flounder from one choice to the next, deciding with 100% assuitedy on what to do only to reverse course mere moments later.

rahter like decide i'm eat healthier around noon and then order a pizza for dinner.. and eat the whole damn thing over the course of the night.

it's not just in what to do, but in what i want. something i've wanted (or thought i did) for a long, long time.. but i never seem to really go for them -- so do i really just want to be able to say such-and-such interests me? a potential point of conversation?

other things i take a stab at from time time to -- with varing degrees of effort. with these, is it that i want it, but i'm not sure how to go about it? that i'm scared i might fail? is it better to say 'i'm working on this' than to really work on it?

what to do when faced with the reality that something has finally come along that's been years in the coming? will i run from it? will i embrace it?

what if i get it or do it.. and it's not what i thought it'd be?

the danger of always seeing something in your mind is that.. you have blinders, everyone has blinders.

i think i am going to go listen to Anna Begins by Counting Crows.. just to hear him say, "i am not worried, i am not overly concerned"